Monday, March 31, 2008 @ Monday, March 31, 2008

It finally end last night...

No tears...
No bitterness...
No feeling of pain...

Just a sense of loss..

I need to admit i nv feel so stunned at tat moment...

It feel like we just start out yesterday and ended at last night...

But it's for the best....

I need to admit i still feel sth for her...

But time will soon wash it away...

It's always been like this...

I remember one time while i was chatting to her at a beach...

And this is how our conversation go....

"就算我不在，我也会给你永远。。。memories will be here.."
And i just gently tap my index finger on her head...

I remember how vulnerable she looked tat night...

A tear just slided down across her cheek...

"就是说有一天你会走。。"

I just hugged her...

But in the back of my mind...

I am thinking....
"会的，但会是很久以后。。。"

以后就是昨天的事。。。

I feel so much at ease after typing it out..

I sincerely hope tat we will be still contacting each other as frenz...

Wink...if u r reading this...

P.S (I love u...) : as a frenz....^^

Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ Sunday, March 30, 2008

26/03/2008

Woke up quite early to do some houseworks

It's the start of my SIT camp..

The first day is for Student leader..

The first day is pretty alright...

Just form ourselves into three groups...

The event group wants us to try out the tele-match for the campers..

A warm up for us ...so we can guide the freshies (fresh sheeps) to their games...

A lotsa fun games...

The longest line..the passing of polo mint though using a short stick...

Get to know 3 gurls...

Quite a funny bunch of people...^^

27/3/08

Wake up at around 7am..

Follow Xiu chen to the toilet to wash up ourselves..

Next wait for debrief by the Admin group...

After tat...breakfast...nasi lemak..

Next they assign us to group...

My group will be team 4...

Edmund, kathy and me r in a group..

I need to thanks my lucky star tat i have such patners...

Comapare to my frenzs...i am consider quite fortunate le...

SOme patners r just not "into" this camp at all..

For our team..my patners and me jus keep high-ing tru out the camp...

After tat..we just wait for the freshies to come..

From wat i heard from the Admin...only 150 students turned up....

well....quite a lots le....

We just gathered them outside agora hall then bring them into Lt2 lecture room...

Next we just introduce ourselves as the student leaders

Nicholas suddenly pop up and ask me and the other SL to go down to help him to sort out the teams..

Quite messy....

But It's quite fun...

Coz u can choose the people tat u want in a team..

Wheeee...

There r alrogether 10 people in my team..

But only these 6 guys and gurls r the "into" type...

Shuan- the Mocca guy
Jun Weng- "I only drink coke.."
Gary- the cool guy
Hong bin- the "sweet' guy
Eunice- the nice and "obedient" gurl
Rui Fang- outspoken

^^
The first day is actually the awakard day for them...

The tele-match sorts of make them bond up a bit..

And when it reach the night...

There is actually a ghost trail, which we make them watch the dorm and bring them into "haunted room"...

27/03/08

Well..This is the IMPORTANT day...

We make them have an amazing race at sentosa...

We have quite a lotsa fun ....

There r a lotsa land and water games...

Legs pain...weary...sun burnt...sticky hands n legs...

But we cannot stop....need to push ourselves to keep walking on n on...

A lotsa complains...from other SL...

I was "c'mon..this is a camp...confirm bound to be tired de.."

Even one of my team mate..also say ,
"ya..the more torturous a camp is..the more fun it'll turn out to be.."

It also applies to Life itself...

Only when one go through the setbacks in life..will one mature and is strong enough to brace themselves against watever obstacles that is coming through their way...

And strangely to say the truth...I dunno if i am just numb or used to it...

Although i really feel tired...But i nv complains....
and i just felt this camp itself had stretch my resiliant but not yet enough to make me drop dead to the floor..

After sentosa....We have a DISco night...

WHEE...

I nv feel so high in RP...haha..

This year is not as high as last year...

But..so...Just enjoy it....

I dance until i keep perspiring...^^

Wednesday, March 26, 2008 @ Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Your Thinking is Abstract and Random

You are flexible, adaptable, and creative. There's many ways that you can learn - and you're up for any of them. You relate well to other people, and you do well working in groups. You can help people communicate together and work with each other's strengths. You don't work well with people who are competitive or adversarial. You prefer to work toward a common goal... not toward conflicting goals.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 @ Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Been Thinking a lots during this past few days..

Finally...I really let go of myself...

I nv feel so peaceful in my life before...

The tense up feeling inside me was finally gone..

I just feel a sense of liberation...

There is no regret...no resentment....no any bitter feeling...

Just gratitude...

Thanks you...

Monday, March 24, 2008 @ Monday, March 24, 2008

Hmmm...quite like me...

Take a long time to recover if i am hurt...

Hmmm...

ya....i truly enjoy a long term relationship..

Hmmm.....charming..^^

Friday, March 21, 2008 @ Friday, March 21, 2008

Hmmm...

Happy Good Friday...

LOL...

Well..actually was working today de...

But when I see tat Rechelle is actually resting from school...

I tell my boss to give me a day off..dun wanna stuck in tat rotting place anyway...

Ida and Steph r gig anyway...

So, feel like seeing her...

I wrote a letter and add a mystery gift inside for her...

I thought she will be happy to see me...

But well..she dun seem to be happy by my surprise visit...

So in the back of my mind...i was thinking wat wrong have i done again...

A bit tired of it le...

Jus wanna have a simple chat with her also seem to hard nowasday...

Maybe she is just too tired from her O-level le...

With Ida and steph..she seem so carefree and comfortable...

I try to look at her...she got manage to smile at me....

I am sastisfied by tat le...

Just meet Justina today...Steph's frenz..

A talkative, well-manner ...plus mature type of gurl..

She can be the frenz who u can turn to if u ever face any trouble...

Not bad...^^

Thanks for making me smile today...

Thursday, March 20, 2008 @ Thursday, March 20, 2008

TOday is such a "long" day...

Wun say much abt my working day today...

Tml same place again..can kill my boss sia...

Anyway I just slack at there lo..

Use the net...flip the newspaper...read my novel..walk here and there..

I dun wanna waste my time staring into nothingness...urrgh...

Wednesday, March 19, 2008 @ Wednesday, March 19, 2008

You know what wherever i see someone is in a dire situation
and went to tell somebody about it...

The somebody will always tend to say
-"Everything will be OK”
-"That happened to me once”
-"Dun think too much"
-"Just try to forget about it.."
-"It'll turn out to be nothing later...trust me."
-"You're thinking way too much.."

Crisis clichés feel comfortable, but resist tossing them out there.

Coz u know why??

These statements often provide false assurances and can come off as fake, artificial and even uncaring...

I need to admit i am one of the someone who sometime used to say tat to my frenz..

Well..no one is perfect in this world..but one can try to learn...

The only way to response is to say nothing...just be there...patient..

Unless the person ask u a question ...

u can try to fit urself in his or her shoes to view their world...

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 @ Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Today is quite a fruitful day...


Better than yesterday...


Got 9 names on my track list..muahahahaha

Today only Clyde and Zeon are working with me...

Once i hit 4 ppls...i went to amk hub with Zeon ...

Else confirm will rot at the booth again..

From 3.30 walk until 5 pm, den return back to our booth to find our dear Clyde...

HAHAHA

@ Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Today went AMK hub to promote credit cards again..

So siann today..

PEi ching, Joanna, Shawn and me r literally spending our time slacking away...

-Reading magazine (Eight days and I zhou kan)
-Ppl-watching...
-SLapping the brouches on the table..
-Shooting rubber bands at each others..
-Fooling around with topic which consist of gays and lesbian...

FUN rite...-.-

Today only hit 2 targer er yi...both foreigners..

Xuan le...forget it...bleah...

But today, there is this siao ding dong come to our booth and demand he had a lotsa $$$..

He keep yanking abt how much money he had....

Dots...an old man...wearing a dark blue shirt and a shitty short white pant
plus one cheapskate shade...

look..i am not judging a person by how he or she wears..

He is just. so. gross.

I suspect he is blind in one eye...

The signboard "No smoking" is damn big la..

I think his eyes is just too tiny to notice it..

Can still ask me.."oii..can smoke here marh?"

zzzz....go away..u blind old fool...

Ask me a lotsa urrgh questions..

About how to spell voucher...-.- and how to say rebate in chinese...

Can't u just buy a billigual DICTIONARY..

I am a UOB CC promoter..not a tuition teacher....arrgh...

But today IDA and jand come and visit me at night...^^

So my day did not really end up so sian and bored...

Went to have some tea and soft drinks...

Have a good chat about JAne's gurl image..

hahaha...whee..

As mentioned above regarding to the Eight days magazine...

IT's i brought one..^^

Coz i find it fascinating with its interesting tittle "The ANNOYING list" which is being slam onto the cover page...

There r altogether 50 annoying stuffs tat is being mentioned in there..

I will just pick out the interesting one and analyse it...^^

1) Hoverers
- The conversation is over...so stop lurking behind my back..

Get this quite often by my brother..-.- simply annoying la..
I here typing..and he is there breathing into my ear and watching my MSN chatlog...
get lost..arrgh

2) Lame automatic toilet flushes
- Filthy water rushing up our butts mid potty..

I used to get this response from the dear toilet bowl in some hawker centre washroom..
i was like urrgh once i get out from the toilet and swear to myself i would never step into this washroom unless my bladder threaten to burst in any second...

3) Mirror and sink hoggers
- Nostril hair admirers who have the cheek to go "tsk" when we try to
wash our hand...haiz..

Pls la...ur house also got mirror...if u see there is a lotsa ppls waiting in line to wach their hand..jus stand back and let them la...sigh...

4) PEE on public toilet seats
- PPL, dun u get the memo: We're in the FIRST world already

Haiz..seriously speaking..i always feel like puking wherever i see droplets of urine on the toilet seat..it jus make me feel disgusted at the person who made "arts" at the seat..

5) Cabbies who gruble, "wah. so big ah!" when u pay them with a 50 dollars note
- Taxi fares nowasdays also very "BIG" wat...

Ya...so..pls...cabbies..dun complain hor..-.-

6) Overindulgent parents and their brawling brats
- Parent who went on about their business...and ignore their kids crying sound

It just eek me off...

7) Women who give u false hope while we queen outside dressing rooms
- Just when we think they're leaving the room free, they beckon to their best frenz, sister..mother..
ah ma..aunties...ah ma...so the list go on...to "Come in and see nice on not?"
Not.

Arrgh..get it a lotsa time..esp CNY period..waiting so patiently for my turn..and it feel like a release of boredom when i see one of the fitting room open...But when they wave their hand in the air..u can
Just. Simply. Forget. Ur. Chance. OF . Getting. IN..

Sunday, March 16, 2008 @ Sunday, March 16, 2008

WENt out with REchelle today...

Have a lotsa fun with her..^^

Went waffling with her at Gelare..

After tat..went shopping for her shawl..

End up finding the one she want...happy happy..

Next we went to toyroom to visit my dear colleages..

Have fun playing with crayons and salt..

LOL

Saturday, March 15, 2008 @ Saturday, March 15, 2008

You Are Peppermint Flavored Gum

You have a sharp mind that is always churning. You are mentally hyper. You're always thinking of something. And while your mind is always on, you're not the most physically active person around. Some people make mistake you for being lazy, but the truth is: you never relax. You tend to get so deeply into your projects that you ignore everything around you. You are creative and cutting edge. You love telling people about your newest ideas and discoveries.

Thursday, March 13, 2008 @ Thursday, March 13, 2008

The leap years ROCKS!!!

At first when i was sitting down on the cinema seat..

I was expecting a normal love story...with nothing special about it...

But i was wrong...

I nv thought tat s'pore could be actually tat romantic...tat beautiful...

And kudos to LiLi & tat cute guy Ananda...

They really play out their roles quite well...

Vernetta Lopez really stunned me in this show...

She is gay in the show, no wonder when all the gurls r yanking abt boys matter...

She is just doing other things, not showing at least a small interest in it at all...

LOL

But seriously back to the main topic...

Will you really wait for a person for 4 years...

And within the 4 years...there is no phone calls...E-mail...and sms...

Just silence..a very loud silence...

For me...2 years is already a toture le...

Still need 4 years..no..i can't...

And there is this one quotation from this movie...

"A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it"

I keep thinking about this even when i was sitting on the bus on my way home...

No matter how much i crack my head..the answer is just not there...

Tat's y i went to yahoo answer and finally some "teachers" show me the light into this special quotaion by Jean de la Foutaine

And there are various answers to my burning questions...

like from Jan

• It means you become the thing you hate the most.Example; a person is raised by uncaring parents and is hurt emotionally. As an adult, to avoid any more emotional pain, he becomes detatched from his family ("if I'm not close to them, then something happenes, I won't be hurt.") He, in effect, becomes the same father that raised him - uncaring and hurtful. I hope this helps.

When one thing is destined in a person life...

no matter hw he avoid...he will still meet it face to face

And from this...i think it sort of in a way relate to my childhood...

I dun wanna let myself hurt emotionally ...so always detach myself from my parent...

Until when i was in primary school do i knew how to have a good conversation with them...

And another by the name of david

• It takes in to the theory that each person has a destiny. Like say Hitler. He was destined to lead Germany. But it was choice that got him in trouble. If you try to avoid what you are destined for you would only rush to get there. That is what this is. I believe that we all have a path marked out for us but it is up to us to both walk it and to define that path.

Destiny and choice...

Will choice make any difference to one's destiny?

Sometime, fate already written out ur choice in its own invisible hand..

U just dunno the details inside....

And in the show, there was a scene in which Li-an and Jeremy are debating about love letter..

And the most common word use in a love letter is "miss" ....not "love"...

LOL...

So wat's love really?

Is it just missing?....or there is something more than that...

From what i know...

Love is about caring for the other party in an unconditionally manner...

Love is about partaking the other person life as it's ur own...

Love is about listening to what the party have to say...

I hope anybody out there who is reading this know how to treasure ur loved one...

Romance is in the air...

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Nth much to say..

Thanks to yesterday carrot cake and milo..

My poor throat start to get sore and swollen...

Cry...

In the end...

Cough..
Headache...
Painful joints...
Wobbly legs...

But thanks god, my mum saved me by medicine...

Keep feeling like a jelly the whole day...

And every step i walk...I hear my poor joints creak here and there...

SIgh...i am just too stiff le..

Hope i will recover by tml...

I need my throat back..arrgh...

Ok..the SIT camp date is set..

26,27, 28, 29...

4 days....my bag is gonna be very big with clothes...

But i am quite happy abt it..

Just thinking abt it can make me forget abt my illness..

^^

Sunday, March 09, 2008 @ Sunday, March 09, 2008

8/3/2008
Today is a FUN day!!

GO with Rechelle to grab a movie..

L:Change the world

And seriously speaking, this is the best of the best in Death note movies..

The story...The familiar characters...The tension..I wun forget..

The hilarious part of the story will be when Mika and Near are crying their heart out...
L is shown to be at a loss and just keep trying his best to pour his coffee into his cute Flask...^^

The second funny scene will be in which L wore his all too familiar famous cute slanted-lip mask, when K is web-camming with him....hahaha

Another funny scene will be in which L was trying in vain to calm down Near so tat he can obtain the memory chip which is hidden inside Near's necklance...

And the famous scriptline at that sweet scene will be, " it's my first time doing babysitting, and by how i do it, i dun think i have the talent for it...(sigh)"

HAHA...fancy having L as a daddy...I dUn mind..whee..hahahaa

The most inspiring scene will be the ending which show L walking away into the sunset, muttering, " How I wish i still can live in this world for a few more days..."

Being alive mean u can have a 2nd chance in life if u had once mess up before..
Being able to jump, run and breath on this Earth is worth celebrating for...

Friday, March 07, 2008 @ Friday, March 07, 2008

Well...

Today is like a beginning and an ending to me...

Something finally resolved le...

It's like sth had truly finally ended..

It's not as if i am happy or sth...

It's just i feel so peaceful about how my dear friends had finally release thoes painful feeling from their hearts..

Sometimes, an ending is a kind of good thing for a bad beginning...

Ok, stop yanking abt this le...

I will talk abt the interesting parts tat had happened today

Jane's mum IS so CUTe..

She suddenly get high and keep shaking her body to the music..

I was laughing my head off...

Today Steph is soooo generous, by treating us to Pizza Hut..

Whee....^^

Thanks, buddy...

And Ida also got one TINY surprise for us today...

A guy wanna chio her ...

And tat guy is quite a Chio bu to me ...

Hahahah...y i say he is a chio bu..

Coz long blond hair, wear a cross earring and had a slender build...

But from what i see, he had some gym training before...

^^

Wednesday, March 05, 2008 @ Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Just watch Love my life yesterday night...

It just blew my mind away...

The story is just so real...and down to earth...

And the last scene is just so touching...

With the scriptlines being read out by actors...

It doesn't matter how vulnerable I am
It doesn't matter how much it hurts
i dun need a strong shield anymore
Because I've realised being myself
protect me more than anything else

Sometime in life, we just need to be ourselves...

We need to shred away the mask and make up to really see who's the person deep within us...

It's just a matter of "knowing thyself"

I don't blame anyone for who I am
There's no other reason why I am as I am
I'm just the product of the way I feel

Dun ever deny ur own true feeling...

Nv put the blame onto the other party tat make u feel in a certain way...

No matter what happens in the future
We will not deny our feelings
Someday we will be able to say
Really loud and really proud

^^

Tuesday, March 04, 2008 @ Tuesday, March 04, 2008

It was Alfred Lord Tennyson who said,
" Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have love at all."

Foolish Dead Poet..

How could it be better to have lost and lost?

Unless one does not love deep enough or nv truly love before...

But if one see it from another angle, the whole meaning change..

You may lost it, but the memories of thoes loving days will forever being etched onto your mind.

Cause if u had never met the person before, you wun even had thoes memories in the first place..

The memories might be a comedy or a deep tragedy...

But when one one get emotional distance from the pain...

The word pain is not your punishment...

It's merely just a wound tat it will heal through time...

After tat, you will walk out of the whole mess with a confident smile on your face

that you have actually survived all this ordeal..

Monday, March 03, 2008 @ Monday, March 03, 2008

Yesterday is so cute la..

Now i understand y the guys say working at branch alone is so sian...

I believed le...coz i jus experienced it today...

One person...one table of pamphlets....staring into nothingness...

All around the person was just a speed of crowd....ignoring the prescene of her...

Can u feel the loneliness ?

Hahahah..i am being too melodramatic right now...

Just see a movie on youtube jus now..

There is one dialogue tat intrigued me...

"Actually everything has happened before, it has all be scripted."

"Scripted?"

"Some people believed that they can change their life, and they try their best to do it. But no matter what, their lives have already been scripted. Their choices and results are all
pre-destined..."

"You should say they're all pre-mediative."

"Pre-mediative...right!"

Maybe even in love...

@ Monday, March 03, 2008

1/3/08

Went out with Rechelle today...

Went shopping for her cute shoes...

Meet her at Queensway MRT station...

We had a small bet to see which MRT reach there first...

In the end, she won...-.- (not fun de)

Ok la...she looks quite shuai tat day...

Black long sleeve shirt wth jean...

CUTe la...>.<

We went to IKEA for Children set lunch...

Meatballs...hahahahaha

But quite nice la...yummy...

Gig to try it again once i get my pay...arrgh...hahaha

Wan marh..Rechelle..

Next time...okokok?

Smile

After tat, we spent the whole afternoon gig round and round to find the right shoe for her...

In the end managed to find a COol Red Nike shoes...damn cool la...^^

2/3/08
Have a BIG sore nose today...

The wheather is freaking cold la...

Brrr.....

In the end, my one ah-choo become 2, 3, 4 and den cannot stop le...

Damn tiring la...keep sneezing the whole day...

But still, i manage to pop one pill to stable the condition of my poor nose..

Coz, i am gig out with Ida marh...

Went to S'pore river and start chatting abt life..frenz...and love...

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