Sunday, September 30, 2007 @ Sunday, September 30, 2007

A lotsa things change sooooo much in jus a b***** few months...

I dunno tat i have the abilities to change tat much...

I tot such things will not happen to me....

I tot i am gig to live my life as normal as possible..

-go school..get my diploma and cert...
-find a job tat match my interest..
-Find a nerd n get married...settle down
-Grow old and see another generation of my own family...

But wat happen now seem to contrast in everything i believe in...

Everything sorta change in term of my thinking, relationship and own set of moral...

I am sometime really confused at wat am i getting at,,,

Things do change in the process..Just treasure the present..

Seriously speaking, i get ot know quite a fews lesbian which are mainly
PL, bungs, andro, active and passive...

And their ways of living their lives amazed me...

They are brave and dun care how homophobic this society is..

The world is made up of varieties of people, but it is the society who paint the line in black and white...

Sometime, the consequence for being Honest is worst than wat one think..

Keeping it inside is more safer sometime...

Have I change?

I dunno..

I am still the same...library freak..day-dreamers...music...

Only jus one thing change...

nth else le...

Monday, September 24, 2007 @ Monday, September 24, 2007

Suddenly

I feel like running

i feel like screaming

i feel like jumping

I feel like escaping

I feel like bleeding

there is sth in me again....

the me who feel like running but is held prisoner inside in a physical body..

I keep a secret

And this secret is slowly killing me off every min...every second i lived...

I feel like
luging a big bottle of oxgen tank around me wherever i go...

Coz i can't breathe..properly

I feel like i am on a charade...

wEaring a mask to make ppl smile at me...

I wanna Shout out that this is not the real me...

But sometime honesty comes wif a heavy price...

The price of killing ur image and pride tat u have build around u for a long long time...

I am NORMAL...NORMAL as can be

There is nth WRONG abt who am i...

I nv do a things that cripple the morality of this society...

So, stop crapping abt the mistake tat i done...

It's jus so normal...

Unless u r blind not too see tat everywhere

It's a free world....

And wif this...

my Breathing

Slowly

return

back to

normal.................................

Tuesday, September 11, 2007 @ Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Here to blog b4 school reopen....

lol

Recently a lotsa things happen in my life..

smile...dunno how to write out tat kind of feeling

Next time den write it out..

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