Thursday, May 11, 2006 @ Thursday, May 11, 2006
6/5/06
mood: Cranky..
Just finished having some physic remedial wif one of a senior in Mcdonald, quite a fruitful wan 2dae… Learn quite a things 2dae.. Now it’s 10.5 4 pm.. n I dunno y I feel so lonely and restless now.. It’s like sth being ripped out from my soul.. I can’t focus on my physic notes.. All I think now is I wanna run.. run.. run.. N the weird thing’s tat I dunno y I feel like running.. my legs feel like shaking off by itself.. AARRGH!!!! Y!!!! Some of my phone frenz like yvo and hwee shan sort of disappered into thin air...I need somebody 2 talk 2... pls..pls..I feel so lonely for the 1’st 16 years of my life...Damn it...
Y... When u need someone 2 be around, they r just not there.. BUT when u wanna be alone... they r just beside u for no special reason.. There r a lot of things tat I have been thinking about tis past few days... like wat happened to the frenzship btw me and AMY.. Wat happened to SARAH... she’s just so far away now.. Wat happened to frenzship tat suddenly seen so sour and bitter... Sighz.. well, I dunno.. wherever I look at Amy, I just developed tis kind of sudden feelin’ out of nowhere 2 turn away from her, not wanting 2 greet her or talk 2 her.. I dunno, really... I mean 2 say the truth, she’s a good frenz at some times but I just feel so weird n empty and wif her, I find no issues 2 talk 2 her.. . It’s not as if I hate her or sth... it’s just tat kind of Feeling of not wanting 2 talk 2 her.. Hey, AMYI...if u r reading tis, I just wan 2 tell u tat u r a good frenz.. I still feel grateful when u r willing 2 silence down n let me pour out my anguish and bitterness during a period of times when no one seem 2 BE listen 2 me... the fun times when u r in tat joking mood… and the gifts u’ve gave me... thanks u...thanks u... PLs just 4give me for me for wanting 2 become strangers 2 u... If the icebergs in me melt one day, I’ll say a big hi 2 u when I walk down the hallway n meet u... Just dun hate me... I had enough of hatred and loathing for the past 4 years, thanks you for the last time...
--xoxo,
Imaginarist
Imaginarist
