Wednesday, July 18, 2007 @ Wednesday, July 18, 2007
I dunno y now i feel a sort of emptiness in me tat seem to be unable to get away...
I feel so tired, so frustrated, so unwilling...
All this emotion just seem to be crumpled all inside me...
I never felt so tired in my life at this moment...
Well, can say abt that stupid spec..
I spoilt tat 5 years spec i wear since sec 1...
Realised tat my degree had deepen, ask parent to divide money equally so as to buy a pair to let me wear at night when i take out my contact lenses..
I wanna had jus a simple black spec, but my dad come to the stupid shop and start to say
black very normal, y dun u choose sth out of the ordinary..
i was being brainwash into his theory of black is dull..
But black is a must to me, so i choose a black frame but a white side with red curl..
Mum say it's look awful and call me From JP all the way to Gek po to change another pair..
i go with my contact lenses still on, so i cannot see how i look from the mirror..
My eyes will stung..
In the end, my mum agree tat it look nice, but go home start to QUARREL wif me
on y i nv choose a black frame..
WO you arh, wo you arh, but pa shuo black hen dull arh,
bu rang ni yao wo zen yang...
I never so much PRESSURIZED at tat moment..
First, she smile and agree
Next, she frown and yell
Tell me, what the fuck does she wan from me?
I dunno...
PLZ make up ur mind b4 scolding me...
Coz, hen shang ren...
thanks you very much
Anyway, i rarely wear spec when i go out, mostly contact lenses..
So, you mei you ren kan dao, wo bu zai fu
So, you mei you ren feel it's nice, i heck care..
MOst importantly, it is tat when i noe i settle on something or a choice...
I wun nv turn back, but jus follow on what i had choose..
Once the choice is settle, tat's it...
Tat's me...
Ok, finally can feel my anger seep finish le..
Now i think the thing that can make me calm down and
stop fidgeting about in my life right now at the moment is tat person...
He/she is my source of "mineral water" to make me relax down after running tiredly for my life a brief second..
Wif him/her, i feel a sort of unexplainable ease and comfortable
coming over me...
Bestie? Sidekick? God-Sibling ?
I dunno n i dun care...
Like tat should be enough for us le...
Like tat, i already feel satisfied le...
--xoxo,
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