Friday, January 25, 2008 @ Friday, January 25, 2008
Dunno why...
Does 2nd time mean letting history appear all over again??
I remember when i get my O-level result last year...
The feeling of dread washed up to me like a wave..
I was feeling cold...
Not physically..
but deep within me...
I feel numb...
I was scare at tat time...
Scare i got nowhere to go..
I nv feel so lonely in my life before..
I dun wanna face my frenzs..
Coz all r smiling happily around me..
and i simply can't bear it..
I jus take my result and walk out...
Walk out from the school..
While i was walking...
I tot the feeling of coldness will go away..
But it jus freeze somewhere around my chest...
That feeling is so pain...so cold..
I jus take out my phone and call my senior..
When i heard his sound...
i feel a sense of relief...
He was there to console me...
Tell me there is still place for me to go..
Doors are still open for me...
My mind was whirling and twirling at tat time...
I nv feel so confuse at that time...
no..should be my past 16 years at tat time..
But after finish talking to my senior...
I feel the burden deep within me lighten up..
Thanks to him...seriously...
I dunno what i will do if not for his voice tat time...
And till to this day, he is still my favourite senior...^^
And so now...i need to re take O-level English..
And i am gig to do it well..
I am not gig to let history of that day happen again..
I wanna walk out with tat certificate, feeling safe and happy..
I wanna let the afternoon sun caressed my skin...
And i going to let happiness overwhelmed me next year when i get back my result...
I will...
NExt topic..
I noe Rp is a fuck up school as many ppl deem it to be..
I noe it also had a fuck up system..
And i admit it is a fucking fuck up school with fuck up system..
But u noe wat wat..readers..
I jus happen to fall in love wif this fucking school..
PBl system actually had her own beauty...
it let u think out of the box...
I noe in this School....
I might face obstacles in gig to local university..
But who care..as long i am happy studying in tat fuck up hell of a school..
so...^^
--xoxo,
Imaginarist
Imaginarist
