My family

Tuesday, July 22, 2008 @ Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Today, a frenz jus told me..

"Have u ever think that u will change one day?"

Ya..i willl...ppl do change...it's the fact of life..

• Sometime to suit the need of people around us..
• Sometime to adapt to the society ...
• Sometime for your own good..

ya...own good..i noe..

Since young

Every small step that i had taken was filled with a lots of thinking and consideration..

I dun dare spoil the structure of my order life..

I dun dare to risk losing my close friends around me..

I dun dare to venture into the unknown..

I just wanna feel safe..

And this is just like a ongoing loop continue on and on till sec 4..

Only when i started working..i start to realise that r a lots of people out there living an unusual lifestyle who dun even give a damn to what ppl think about them..

They just wan the world to respond to them..not them reacting to them..

Just think abt it...

• ur alarm rang...u wake up..
• ur feel hungry...u buy from downstair...
• ur brother wan ur help...u offer ur help..

etc...

All of this r just merely responding to it...

But if one manage to get sth to respond to them..anything..

IT's something..

I dunno if thoes wild ppl r foolish r just kid who haven grow out of their id shell.

Coz only a annoying kid will try their best to get sth to respond to them..

Thoes wild ppl r not annoying...they just make ppls feel uncomfortable abt the way they choose to live..

• Like doing freelance prositute for a living..
• Abortion 3rd or 4th time..yet still wanna do it again...
• Male cross dressing as females and go to female toilet like as if they dun have penis..-.-

etc...

They r brave..even though to the majority eyes, it is deem as unmoral..inappropriate..

But in their mind...was just one simple word, "So?"

Simple as that..

For me..i am still the same old me..

But sth had changed inside me..

My thinking..my beliefs..my principal...my reasons..

changed...

I dun wanna grow old and say, " I should had done that long time ago.."

no...i dun wan tat..

I wan to say, " Experience it b4 le...and it's such a bittersweet memories to me.."

What's the difference between an 18 years old and an 21 years old?

I dunno...coz i am still 18...

I am now like a 13 years old thinking on what life is going to be like at 18...

I know what am i doing..i really do..

Even though now ppl said that i am doing sth risky..

Even though some ppl might deem me as being selfish..

Even though some ppl out there might hate me...

"SO?"

I am not tat self-center btw..

Just wanna tear open my mask and reveal who's the real identity inside..

Cause b4 i return to my old way of thinking at 21 years old..

I wanna really be truly myself ...really wanna live and breath in this Earth b4 like my own self..

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