Saturday, January 31, 2009 @ Saturday, January 31, 2009

I feel so shuang today...

I finally brought my new WALLET...

It is a pierre cardin black leather wallet with a lot of compartments and a cute coin pouch sticking inside..

Finally, I had grown out of all thoes "kiddish-looking" wallet and move on into thoes leather kind le..

Love the feel of my wallet...=DDDDDDDDDD

Friday, January 30, 2009 @ Friday, January 30, 2009

Dating Violence Awareness Week- 7th-14th February 2009

That feeling sucks...

Thanks god i nv experience it b4...

Well..i did..but only emotional abuse la..

But I get out of tat r/l pretty fast..

Wheee...

Coz love is not suppose to be in tat way...

Inflicting pain to the person u love is simply plain psychotic..

Wednesday, January 28, 2009 @ Wednesday, January 28, 2009

My familiar journey back home to my granny house...

The familiar smell of the sea always greet me wherever I stepped out of my dad's car...



I have been walking this street for t as long as I remembered...

Everything at there had been slightly changed to accomodate the new atmosphere...only this wodden bridge..

I remembered once I was afraid of walking this route...too scared that i will fell down from there and into the sea...


But the phobia had already long gone....


I like the wind...the salty smell...the creak of the bridge...the feeling of my shoes stepping onto it..

1/4 of my life was spent here...I am consider quite a 1/4 village gurl bah...


It's fun...catching fish..running barefoot...sucking ice lolly...running down to the nearby provision shop for my daily sweets and soda drinks...playing catching with the kids till I am all sweating and sticky..

Tat place used to be my paradise...

Tat place is still my paradise..

Tat place is Kukup...my grandmother's house is at there..

My mother's birthplace...

My paradise...
The sunset's really gorgeous at there...

I always had this tiny wish..to be able to share this scene with someone I love..

The night scene is dead gorgeous...

Tiny little stars scattered around the whole black purpurlish sky....

It's uncountable...

I try to take a pic of the nigth sky..but the stars is simply too far away to be absorb into my camera...

This pic was taken from a website...I am trying to depict what did I saw yesterday night...

hahaha..hope you guys can noe how I feel when I saw so many blinking stars at the sky...

That's place is really suitable for couple...especially at night...^^

And ya...Happy new Year to you guys...=DDDDDDDDDDD

Saturday, January 24, 2009 @ Saturday, January 24, 2009

My new Idol nw..

Tae Yang...

^^

His dance movement is so slick and smooth....

And he had this killer smile that seem so dazzling to me...

Finally found one male singer that is worth my attention....^^

The song is quite meaningful...

I think it's a song that sang out the deepest emotion of all human beings: Selfishness

"Dun avoid me even if I cheat on u, baby.."

"The only one you can lean on is me...."

"Even if I forget you, dun forget me lady.."

"I hope at least you will stay innocent, always..."

Who wun wan the person u love to always remain in tat way?

But there is no such good thing in this world...

Cheating is still cheating...It's a sin that everybody in this world will done once before in their life..

Dun ever tell me u dun..shhhh..

LOl...the only way to stop this sin from happening to to keep urself single...

Else dun ever stead...unless you are sure you wun cheat on the person...

Nobody is perfect in this world..

Chinese new year is coming in 2 days time...

For dunno what reason...I feel quite calm and non-chalant abt it...

Last year CNY is a torture for me...

This year is like nth for me...It feel like any other normal day for me....

The thing that I am focusing right nw will be to find a job when I came back from Malaysia....

Play...work...Piano...life...

I need to have a plan for 2010...

I will be graduating next year and I wanna further my studies in one of the local U...

Wednesday, January 21, 2009 @ Wednesday, January 21, 2009

I am now whistling a sweet tune of Boston while typing this blog post..

Never feel so carefree before..

Feel like a soul being clensed out of of my sins and dirts...

I finally feel so lighthearted...It should be like this...actually...

Maybe I just returned back from hell...

I have been popping countless of pillsssssssss for the past few days...finally my dad brought me to doc to have a big injection stuck into my right arm...

My brain was shot awake by that injection...

The fresh sharp raw pain of the needle...deep into my skin..into my vein...plunging into every corner of my body...burning me...

And the doc could still make a joke out of it, " Coz u dun have much flesh at your right arm...(smile)"

I was...wt*..

Thanks for the injection anyway..else I think I will suffer for another few more days in agony..

Tml is SCHOOL DAY...even it means only left 2 days...I still wanna go...

I wanna grab the fresh copy of the writer works anthology...

Finally SEE my NaME in PRINT!!

HAHAHAHA...I am happy!!!!!!!!!!

I can dun care abt the 20 dollars book voucher...seeing my name in the book already make my day...

Thanks for all thoes who still care abt me...

OWN u a guys a LOTS of HUGGIESSSSSSSSSSS...

Gotta be like the gurl in Boston...^^

Monday, January 19, 2009 @ Monday, January 19, 2009

I....dunno what to say here...

I am sorry for all the jackass things I have done...

If it was b'coz of my presence that make you so unbearably confused...

I am sorry...

Thanks for being there when I am at my weakest point...

Thanks for being there when I need a listening ear..

Thanks for being there leading a shoulder for me to lean on..

Thanks for being there hearing all my useless crap and rambling...

Thanks for being there when I need someone...

Thanks for putting a smile on my face...

Thanks for all the care..

Thanks for being there...

I think I am just a selfish jerk....

I never really think of your feeling towards me before...

I am sorry....

Forgive me....

A Writer's Manifesto....

Tuesday, January 13, 2009 @ Tuesday, January 13, 2009

I am your neighborhood whore of self-assurance. I am your lock-lipped student.I am every angst-ridden teenager, every heart-aching mother, every boy with a bass guitar. And I am a writer.

I know the strength of the pen and the impact of digital words. I’ll tell you of abandonment that I’ve never suffered, of love never lost, and touch I’ve never felt. I know the sensation of inspiration struck at midnight, of swallowing native ideas, of embracing a language of words never spoken. I’m every sick child you picked on, every boy you cheated on, every adolescent brave enough to pick up a pen, every person who had the guts enough to make a difference on paper. I’m what you wish you were in a place you want. I’m alive in the red glow of lamplight, I breathe in the scratched ideas on a diary’s blank pages. I know the envy of talent surpassed and the anger of muse lost and I use everything you toss to the garbage as my ink.

I’m every song you hate and every book you love, every girl you wish you had kissed and every piece of information you ignored. I’m your freak, your sex, your electric light culture; your raver, your scenester and your black-light nail polish. I’m rough around the edges so you don’t have to be. I’m your cheap screw, your naïveté lost to hormone curiosity. I’m every idea you had but didn’t pursue, every inch you let your hand slide to that dirty place your mother talked about. I’ll give a musical sound to your deafened ears and I’ll give the cones in your eyes the colors they’re missing.

I’m your text-message romance, the sensation formed in the womb, the beat of life unnoticed. I’m your black-ink revenge, your attention-crazed fingers, your living, breathing skin cells that cry out for the stimulation of human contact. I’m your
brother-in-arms, your school-shooter newsbreak, your hammering question and your nagging answer.

I’m every prejudice in your head, every one-hit-wonder. I’m your superior, your inferior, your can, your can’t; everything you wish you could be and everything you have. I’m you lover, your liar, your beauty, your suicidal, ten-volt ego, your pulsing need. I’m every
religious handbook, every utopian socialist, every massive sigh you heave, the tune in your step, the trill in your cry and beautiful bliss in your pain. I’m every inhaled, injected, crack-house drug you breathe. I’m senses amputated, I’m hello, ignorance and goodbye, pretty things. I’m your media analysis, your superficial non-conformist. I’m Trash Flavored Trash and Laser Life. I am one and I’m all, I’m giving and I’m taking.

I’m the God of my world. I’m your half-sister and your best friend’s brother. I’m pen and paper. I’m vomit-ideas. I’m red lights and purple freedom. I’m bliss. I’m release.

I’m a writer.

Love this piece of essay...

Especially the last line...

I am going back to my writer's life again...

Have enough of experience to last me for a "lifetime"....

Monday, January 12, 2009 @ Monday, January 12, 2009

@ Monday, January 12, 2009

You Are a Magician

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover your power month: December

渺渺

@ Monday, January 12, 2009

Sunday, January 11, 2009 @ Sunday, January 11, 2009

Went SKating with Ida and Meng TOday..

My first attempt to skate b4 i turn 19..hahaha

At least I never broken part of my b'dae resolution for last year...

Thanks IDa..for treating me to skate..haha..huggies..

Thanks Meng for guiding me....else I think I will keep falling down...

After Skating, we went to have a short game of badminton..

Ida kept smashing the shuttle cock to such a great height that me and meng cannot retrieve it sometime...XDDDD

Anyway, I am finally 19....

Happy Birthday to me in advance...

=DDDDD

This year is gonna be a GREAT year..

C'mon...=DDDDD

Saturday, January 10, 2009 @ Saturday, January 10, 2009

@ Saturday, January 10, 2009

Finally find my fave song de...

so happy...

The lyric is quite meaningful...

=DDDD

Thursday, January 08, 2009 @ Thursday, January 08, 2009

COol...RIte..

But Ouch..tat's sooo pain...

Tuesday, January 06, 2009 @ Tuesday, January 06, 2009

人生短短几十年，
不要给自己留下了什么遗憾，
想笑就笑，想哭就哭，
该爱的时候就去爱，无谓压抑自己。

It's true....I dun care anymore....I only have a few years time b4 I turn 21...
Before tat...I wanna give a permission to myself to get crazy as much as possible...^^

能冲刷一切的除了眼泪，就是时间，以时间来推移感情，时间越长，冲突越淡，仿佛不断稀释的茶。　

Once, there is this frenz who tell me she desire a "tea-style" kind of relationship...

就是那种细水长流的爱情。。没有激情。。连心跳的感觉都没有的时候。。变成一种彼此舒服依靠的爱情。。。

我啊。。曾经渴望那种必须要有passion的爱情。。没有的话。。简直是闷死。。

后来被她那一番话给敲醒了。。

其实我。。一直都在寻找那种像茶般一样的感情爱情。。。

哈哈。。。随缘吧。。

后悔是一种耗费精神的情绪.后悔是比损失更大的损失,比错误更大的错误.所以不要后悔...

我对每一件事都抱着一种“试了就不要后悔。。”的态度。。。


生命中，不断地有人离开或进入。
于是，看见的，看不见了；记住的，遗忘了。
生命中，不断地有得到和失落。
于是，看不见的，看见了；遗忘的，记住了。
然而，看不见的，是不是就等于不存在？
记住的，是不是永远不会消失？

不会。。。

Monday, January 05, 2009 @ Monday, January 05, 2009

LOL...

20th of January...

I dunno why...but I need to write down my thoughts here...

The story I wrote is quite simple...clear cut and nothing out of the ordinary...

Maybe the theme I used was special? Coming out...

LOL..

Karma...what is it?

It is a type of action, seen as bringing upon oneself inevitable results, good or bad, either in this life or in a reincarnation.

Unless one break apart from it...

It will nv stopped...keep on gig another cyle n cycle..

For me...I dunno if I am the start or the ending of another cycle...

One of my frenz told me I wun not get anything by making other people life misearable...

I..admit I did once before or perhaps a few times...

I am not really sure about it anymore..But I know hw it felt...

Since young, I have been bullied b4...beaten up by kids my own age b4..being isolated by my own classmates...people sprending stupid rumours about me..

The reason: I am too quiet...(Thanks)

I know how it feel..I am not low in EQ...

Tat's y I told myself I need to get out of this mess...try to be an extrovert...

This time...I will try not to hurt anymore people...

I am not perfect...

Someone told me I always put the blame on people...

Maybe I shouln't...I am not sure abt it..

I need someone to teach me...

Saturday, January 03, 2009 @ Saturday, January 03, 2009

Nice poetry...find it from a blog tat I passed by..
Dedicated to all my frenz who had been tru this experience b4...

For me...I really dun care...
Want to have my own life back...
But Still I like poetry...even the sad one...^^

Enough of all the relationship thingy....
But still..I like romance...even the sad one...

Sometime, I think I am a sadist...

Wheee....gig to be 19 SOON!!
HAHAHA..HOHOHO...

P/s "hey...piggy...remember my gifts hor...^^"

Thursday, January 01, 2009 @ Thursday, January 01, 2009

I am finally cycling again..hahaha


LOL...went cycling with frenzs yesterday afternoon..


I simply like the wind pushing against my skin when I speed forward...


There were a lots of chio bu and cute guys at there...whoots..


A big eyes candy feast to me...


There were too some of thoes irritating idiots down there wearing high heels and "prom-looking" dresses...


I am ok with it...not really against them....cause it's their own right to wear anything they want...


But there is one who is simply a big bimbo...


I was actually riding a few distance behind the "chio-bu" gang...


They suddenly stopped and swipped out their make-up accessories in the middle of the road..


One is powdering her cheek...One is smiling like an idiot in her mirror...One is etc..etc...


Urrgh...forget it...


Yay...I fell down...but this time not because of braking problem..


My frenz...she suddenly braked andI was following her....I let myself collapse toward the right side of carpet grass...but my wheel cut across her little toe...Ouch..sorry..gurl..


We all ended our cycling session at around 6pm...before gig home to bath and change out of our stinky clothes...haha

Seriously speaking, this is the first time I spray "snow" at strangers and wish stranger Happy New YEar...

I just found out yesterday night I am too into my world and lose some of my extrovert traits..

Well..it's not at all too late...

I may turn 19 soon..but so...I am still young at heart..=P

hahahaha...

We left orchard at around 2am and went to S'pore river to play some poker cards...

When we reached there, I just lay my head on one of my friend's shoulder..

I was simply too tired..need at least one hour of sleep..b4 I can be normal..

After my napping...We play 3 truths and a dare with poker cards..

All the truths so...umm...kinky...haha..

And the dares were so.......outrageous...hAha...

ANyway..I really enjoy this 2008 years EVE...

Awaiting for the next one...

=DDDDDDDDDDDD

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